you get stuck on so many things and it’s not getting better. this stuff is pilling up, grows, extends, occupies all of your time. your heart beats so fast that you feel the fluctuation of the beat wave flat. heart attack? no. rapture. there is something in complicated machine of your heart that rattles against its structure. rapture. the storm is comming. you see the lighting cracking up the sky. you fear but suddenly there is no fear at all. explosion. you are cleansed.